45 days post-op

This journey has been quite a roller-coaster. I haven't had many issues and I have been very grateful for that. I had another fill on Thursday and my band is now up to 7ccs. The highest my bad can go up to is 11, but, I doubt that I will go much higher than where I am now. I am very happy about it today. Thursday and Friday, not so much. Today, I am happy.

I ended up getting the day off from work on Thursday and so, I called Dr. Merz's office to see if they could fit me in for an appointment - it was a week earlier than my originally scheduled appointment. I haven't been happy with the way my band has been. I could still eat an entire jimmy johns sandwich and I was not happy about that. I should not be able to eat that much. I asked if I could get a fill early. They were able to fit me in. I stepped on the scale and I was down 2 pounds from my appt 2 weeks earlier. I was happy about that but, still wishing that it was more. I know, I am doing great but still, I want faster results!

When I got home that afternoon, I am supposed to be on a soft diet for 24 hours. Well, I was hungry and I wanted something yummy so, I went to Taco Bell. I know, but they do have beans which are soft and high in protein so, I thought that would be a good choice, especially since I was about to drive 45 minutes to Shawns house. I got a burrito with just beans and thought that would be a good choice. I took a few small bites and was about 15 minutes on the road. I had to pull over and throw-up. It was aweful. I did not want to experience that again. I was able to open the burrito and eat 2 bites of the beans and I was done. I was frustrated. I love to eat. This is NOT how I want it to be. It is how it SHOULD be but, I don't like it, at all. So, the next day, I have to work. I get up and have 2 bites of yogurt and 2 sips of hot chocolate. That is all that I can manage to suck down, the entire day. Friday evening, I was able to choke down 1/2 a cup of rice which was yummy. Saturday, I got up and was able to drink a little bit of powerade. I got called into work and hadn't had a chance to get anything to eat and I had to go into a case at work. Toward the end of the case, I started to feel faint and just about passed out. I sat down on a chair and carried on with the case. Fortunately, the case was almost over and I was able to drop and get something to drink. Around 4pm, I knew I needed to eat something. I tried some Fresh Mozzarella and a tomatoe and it was delicious!! It went down easy and I felt like I was getting some strength back!

Today, for breakfast, I had 2 scrambled eggs with one mushroom and a piece of fresh moz. It went down perfect and was high in protein. What I need to get the most of every day.

As I got on the scale this morning, I am down 25 pounds in 45 days. Not too bad. I am happy. My victory for the day was, I had a box of clothes that contained 3 of my favorite pair of pants in. I had totally forgotten about them until I was in my closet this morning. I decided I would pull them down and see if they fit yet. Squeee! I am so excited. Its a good thing that I found them now, I will get a few weeks wear out of them, they are almost too big!! I will post pictures later today. I am so excited about how things are going, where my life is going and how I am feeling.

It's a good day. I am so tired, I hope that will pick up as I get my eating more regularly.

Thank you to those who are supporting me and loving me during this difficult time yet extremely happy for me.

January 2, 2012

I remember thinking when it's the year 2000, I will be 28. Holy cow, I will be old. LOL. It is now 2012 and I am 40 and guess what?! I'm still not old!!! :) Life is getting better and better every day. I have decided that I am not going to do any resolutions, just monthly goals. The goals for the month of January are to walk/run 50 miles, do Jillian Michaels 30 day shred and to read 4 books this month. So far, I am half way thru my first book and on day 2 of the shred. I went walking around today but, not too much, Wal-mart, Kohls and that's pretty much it. So, I will keep the faith with the walking/running but, as for now, reading and doing the 30 day shred are going to keep me pretty busy.

Happy New Year. May you keep all your resoluitions, goals and dreams.