Next step, surgery.

Today was the last step before surgery. I keep thinking that I am doing the last step and then something else pops up! LOL Today I had my pre-op appointment at the hospital. They made sure that I wasn't ill, that I my blood pressure was good and that I didn't have any off the wall, unexpected disease. LOL I thought the apt would only be like 30 minutes, turned out it was 90. I also talked to the person who deals with the Bariatric patients. She was super nice. She went over all sorts of information with me and my diet and what habits I should start working on first. The one I think I am going to have the most trouble with is no drinking while eating.....should be interesting. Nothing to drink 20 minutes before, 20 minutes after meals. Oh well. I am super excited. I am nervous but excited. Here we go.

3 Days and counting!

OH MY GEE! 3 Days until surgery. Only one more work day and 3 more sleeps. I have been working as hard as I can on the high protein diet but, man, I am not going to eat solid food for almost 2 months....No more soda, EVER, no more beer, EVER, no more caramels, EVER, no bread or sticky stuff. These are my last days to enjoy food. Something that has been my friend, my companion, my confidant. My food, never lets me down. Always there when I need it and never disappoints. Now, I have to make smart food choices. I can't just binge eat because that is what makes me feel good. Not that I probably won't try to at some point but from my understanding, it will probably make me sick. And hopefully, I won't do that again. I feel like I am emotionally ready for this. I want this. I need this. I will ask that my friends and family that are helping support me through this difficult time and not offer me food, goodies or anything that a fatty shouldn't have :) Love you all.

My Last Supper.

I have waited for this day for a year. Tomorrow, I start the high protein diet that I need to help shrink my liver in order to make my surgery easier. I am wondering what I am going to have for supper tonight. I really want to have something yummy but, I am just not sure what I am going to have. Something fatty and probably uber not good for me. I also have to have my last soda today. I am going to make it a great big one, a Dr. Pepper. It's my favorite! I am really not looking forward to going thru the next two weeks but, I am willing to do what I must in order to make this surgery as easy as possible for my surgeon :) Wish me luck!!

Scheduled!

Surgery is scheduled for November 30, 2011 0730. I have to be to the hospital at 0600 and go npo post midnight! OMG. I can't believe that a day is finally set and that it is really here! Wednesday, I have to start the diet, the high protein diet. I need to find that today. GAH! What the heck. I am totally freaking out. I wanted this, I asked for this and now, I just can't wait for it to be done!! :)

Houston, we are a go!

Holy Cow!! Its really happening! My surgery was approved!! I am scheduled to have it done on either the 30th of November or the 5th of December, depending on how much FMLA I have left. It took way more time to get the approval that I had hoped but, I am so glad that it is finally here. I will start my high protein diet on Wednesday the 16th. So much has gone on over the last month to get here and now I am worried about my co-workers reaction because I have already missed so much work. Trying to take care of myself. I have never been in a position in my life to take care of me, and get myself in order and it has been great. I hate the thoughts of people being upset with me but, really, if I am not in good health, both mentally and physically, what use am I to anyone else? Now that I have my mental health in order, it is time to get my physical health in order. The last thing that I have to take care of after this is, my back but, I am not sure what can really be done about that. I was told I am not a canidate for Surgery, yet - tho that was a few months ago. I am going to have another MRI to figure out if things there have gotten any worse. They feel like they have but, who knows. Maybe after I get some of this weight off, my back will start to feel better. Only time will tell.