13 Pounds!!

Let me start by saying, this has NOT been an easy week. It was not as hard as I thought it might be but, I LOST 13 Pounds this week!! I haven't eaten any solid foods this week. I have been drinking my meals, breakfast, lunch and dinner. I have had to drink my Prozac even (which tastes HORRID) and I have to forgo taking my Adderall which hasn't caused too many issues, yet. LOL My ADHD has been ok, tho I haven't been able to get the house cleaned with sort of being all over the place. I do have some immediate release pills but, since I am not allowed to take pills yet, so, I will have to start crushing it up and putting it in my protein shake! This week I have had a lot of time to think about my relationship with food. It has been very good that I have not been hungry or this could have been a horrific week. I have realized that my relationship with food has been the love of my life. It is always there when I need it, it never lets me down and it always satisfies. I look back over the course of my life and can't even begin to imagine how much money I have spent on food and eating out. That WAS my love. WAS. I have been working so very hard this past year to get my life right. I have mental issues, I have body image issues, I never realized how much was wrong until I started trying to make things right. Seems weird how you go along living your life thinking that everything is fine and you fix one little thing you think is wrong and everything falls apart! But in the last year, I have managed to get all the pieces of the puzzle put together. In 2011, so much has happened. I was hospitalized for my mental health issues for the LAST, let me repeat LAST time, I met the love of my life, I became a grandmother, I turned 40, and now, I am getting my physical health in order. I feel so good! It's almost Euphoric! Maybe it's the pain meds! LOL Anyway, all of that being said! If you are reading this, THANK YOU. You are the reason that I am getting well. You are supporting me. My family and friends have been such an important part of this recovery. I am so excited to go back to work, start eating food again and I am actually looking forward to maybe, just maybe trying to ENJOY exercise. How about that? When I started this journey back in October of 2010, I weighed 260, I lost 35 pounds and got down to 225 and then gained 15 back. When I got on the scale the morning of surgery, I was 241, this morning, 228. 13 Pounds.