30 Days Post Op!!!

So, I had really hoped that I would blog a little more often than I have been but, to be honest with you, there hasn't really been much to say! Today though, I am 30 days post op and not only do I feel amazing, I am down 22 pounds!! I got my first fill in my band the other day and things did change and that is good becasue I was feeling a bit discouraged. I have heard a lot of statements about how people can't eat certain things because they get caught in your band or they are hard to eat and to me, that was good. Most of the things were things, I shouldn't be eating anyway however, after I got back to solid foods, I was able to eat anything, nothing ever got stuck in my band, but nothing was hindering me from eating the things that I shouldn't. I know that I shouldn't use that as a way to help curb what I eat but, you have to understand, food is like a drug to me, a drug you can't live without. A drug that you have to have but, only in moderation. It is so hard sometimes. I want to cry. Could you imagine telling a crack addict, it's ok to smoke but, only take 1 hit, then stop. I know that sounds extreem but, it is the truth. Food WILL KILL ME. Maybe not today or tomorrow but, SOMEDAY and so will crack! Now that I have had my band filled, I MUST eat slower, take smaller bites and chew my food so that it doesn't get stuck at band opening. My stomach is smaller now. I can't eat nearly as much as I could at one time. It's amazing. I don't necessarily see a difference in my body but, my clothes are starting to get baggy. I had to retire my favorite pair of jeans and that, while made me sad, made me so happy at the same time. I am at the beginning of the road to a very long journey. I am excited, nervous, scared but most of all, I am ready. I want this.

 I bought a Wii for myself for Christmas. It is so much fun! I bought the Zumba which I am yet to try but, am planning on starting Monday. I have been doing the Black Eyed Pea Experience and Just Dance, SO FUN! Let me tell you, you sweat!!!

So, I do have one and only one New Year's resolution and that is to run the Baystate Marathon on my 41st birthday in October. I have nearly 11 months to train. I am hoping to do the full but, will be happy with myself if I can complete the half, which seems more realistic to me!