Day 4

Gah. Talk about an uncomfortable feeling. I ate some jello today and I think I got a piece a little too big and it got stuck on the way down. It feels like I have a pill stuck in my throat and it is rather uncomfortable. I have also had ridiculous gas since I got home. Seriously, that can go away at any time now. The diarrhea is really the best tho. LOL All kidding aside, I still feel pretty darn good for all that I have been through. I just went through my first stressful situation with a friend of mine and honestly, want to eat the house down but, can't and surprisingly, I am ok with it. Made myself a little cup of chicken broth, letting go of that anxious feeling of wanting to do something but not being physically able to is good. Honestly, I feel like this is the only way to break the cycle. My hand being forced. I would choke if I ate solid food like I want to. I often think about all of the times that I should have just diverted my attention to something else instead of eating. Would I be where I am now? I think that I would like start to exercise when I want to eat. How awesome would that be? I know I need to start exercising more. I can start now by walking 30 minutes a day. I am going to start that tomorrow. I know, I am the ultimate procrastinator but, I really am. It's on my list of things to do. My therapist told me that I am important enough to care enough about me to do nice things for me, starting now. Ok, pain meds are kicking in and I think I am starting to ramble. LOL